January 2012
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All can think about right now
is how much I’ve screwed things for myself. In the past year I’ve made at least 5 life altering decisions. And you know what? I’ve made the wrong choice every single time. And now look at me; I have nothing to show for anything. Saying that I’m disappointed in myself is an understatement. I almost can’t comprehend how it’s even possible that I was so stupid, so naive, so utterly oblivious to what...
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All over the place
1. Every so often, I hear a song, not necessarily for the first time, it may be a song I’ve heard thousands of times before, but every so often I’ll hear a song and it’ll really just hit me. Hit me hard. Two songs have done that in the past couple of weeks, those being fix you by Coldplay and your heart is an empty room by death cab for cutie. Specifically the lines:
When you try your best,...
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I've always said
that I don’t mind being alone and while that still holds true, it doesn’t mean that I don’t enjoy the company of others every now and again. It’s always been difficult for me though which I guess is why I am in fact by myself a majority of the time. It just seems to me that I have to put so much effort toward maintaining any kind of relationship with anyone that in the end, it just doesn’t feel...
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Tonight, everything is weighing on me heavily.
The words aren’t coming easily and I just feel so tired. So weighed down, so hopeless, helpless, and lost. What do you do when you don’t know what to do? I’ve lived the past several months with my mantra being “stay positive, look on the bright side, you can do it.” But now, after all this time, it just seems to have an emptiness to it. Like being happy is for someone...
