is how much I’ve screwed things for myself. In the past year I’ve made at least 5 life altering decisions. And you know what? I’ve made the wrong choice every single time. And now look at me; I have nothing to show for anything. Saying that I’m disappointed in myself is an understatement. I almost can’t comprehend how it’s even possible that I was so stupid, so naive, so utterly oblivious to what I was doing. I feel like I should be waking up any minute now from the nightmare I’ve created. What sucks the most is the fact that all along I had someone telling me that I was about to make a mistake but of course, me being the extremely stubborn person that I am didn’t listen. I know what I’m doing I said, I’ll be okay, I have a plan. Well, plans don’t always work out, plans sometimes fall through, and then what? And then you end up like me, scared, confused, grasping, and lost.